Monday, September 19, 2011

Missing things

The sun hasn't even left us for the season and I already miss it.

It will be out again in full force tomorrow, and then in hiding by Wednesday. Thursday it rains, and Friday is cloudy .. and by then it will be official ... fall will have arrived.

I miss summer already.

I miss many things actually.

I mostly miss my time.

I have a limited time here, and I am not sure when I am going to reach that potential.

Most of my time is obligated. If my time isn't obligated then it is used up, taken up, borrowed, consumed and manipulated.

Even when I think I have time, I don't.

There are days when I say to myself .. "ok, will get that started when I have time"..... still waiting.....

Of course the time is now ... and some things need to be flung to the back burner when other time sensitive events happen.

My friend commented the other day that why am I sitting listening to the Jimmy play, when that is the reason he has a CD now. Ok ... he might have a CD, but he also has about a minimum of 5 hours worth of music sitting in his fingertips, which he always wants me to listen to. It's a double edge sword .. he is willing to sit and play, and converse, and build his repetoire, which springboards him into being a better musician ... or I could go out walking/running and build muscle and burn calories, and yae for me I did it ... but at the end of the day ... I will still be able to do that .. tomorrow .. and who knows where the Jimmy will be tomorrow ... so HIS time is now.

Am I kind with my time, or simply kinda stupid?

Where is the Mr. Husbandman in all of this ... he doesn't care to take an interest in this sort of endeavour .. however .. I know all too well if the boy would be outside chiseling up a hunk of wood with bandsaws, whipsaws and seesaws there would definitely be an active interest by the Husbandman .... in the meantime ... while the Jimmy is under our crumbling roof I will lend an honest ear to the time that it takes to watch a musician in the making. I think this is time well spent.

In the meantime I will continue to miss our longer well lit days, and admitedly accept the narrow length of time that the sun will bless us with.

Of course with the darkening days of the fall quickly approaching I am warmed by the thoughts of my beautiful new reading lamp that I purchased back in the summer time .. when I thought I had lots of time to read, and still didn't find the time.

Now if all my time obligated to working could actually go to a new supersonic chair for doing some reading in .. instead of things like roofs and trips to Cuba for children .. then it would be most stupendous!

Miss Pipalot is HELL bent on getting to Cuba this spring. I congratulate her efforts ... and I was wishing that I could make the trek with her .. but that comes with competition from a whole other whack of parents all clamouring for the same trip (for free... cause we would be chaperones after all) ...OR we would have to pay for it to accompany her. Without a doubt this little chickster is going to CUBA ... and I don't care how much money it costs .. this little lady is going on this trip ... cause she is worth it .. and more. I should maybe throw my hat in the ring ... TIMING could be everything.

Time .. right.


susan said...

I dont think you are at all "kinda stupid". I think you are an awesome mom, spending time listening to your son play. And after all, he is very listenable. I have watched his band videos a few times, would love to see more of Just him tinkling the ivories.
As for Pip, I hope you can make it work that you both can go on this trip. What wonderful memories for you both to go!!!!
If we can find some mutual time off, we should get together soon!!!

Chaos is my Life said...

Yes! "We" should get together soon!!! As far as Cuba goes...I've been told time and time's better than Hawaii??? Go D! Do it!